Let's speak the truth

Hard to believe that it is now Feb 29th, 2024 and I am revisiting this blog. A place to express my own thoughts, perhaps to work through them. I have no goal of reaching anyone with these thoughts, people have long since taken their positions and don't want to know otherwise. My husband Nicholas died on August 10th, 2022. He had been discharged from the hospital on Feb 25 because I would not let him go to the nursing home. I knew that, if he went there, they would not allow me to visit him due to my being unvaccinated. And I just could not bring myself to take that jab. Nor him. So the hospital called and said I would have to take him back home, regardless of whether I was up to the task or not. So Nick came home, and we settled into a routine of rising, eating, napping, taking medications, napping again, eating, fighting his demons in the evenings, and finally going to bed at 10 pm, only to face a night time of broken sleep, taking of meds, night time sweats, more broken sl...